Angels in Heaven
Yesterday a post I posted on facebook about missing my dad triggered some responses and one of the responses was from a friend telling me about her dad and how she could smell his scent and how she missed him. I decided that I was going to post this very private post that I wrote on the one year anniversary of my dad’s death. In the hope of healing within and helping others heal.
“Hi everybody!! This post is one of the most difficult and personal posts I have ever written. I have decided to share my thoughts with you all as I know how many of you are going through this pain at this time and hoping that it will help u.
31 December 2015 at around 4:30-5am (probably why I am up this early) my whole life changed. The most important man in my life my dad passed away peacefully in his bed. It was the most difficult day of my life but I thank God everyday that I was in lebanon to spend that quality time with him and the rest of my family. I miss him everyday and I am sure a lot of you feel the same.
A few days after his death I found a letter he had written to me a long time ago and in it he had said that his biggest wish for me was for me to be happy. That letter changed my life. I decided to make big changes in my life. I decided there was no way I was going to stay unhappy. I was going to change my life so that my dad’s wish would come true.
So when I went back to Canada in January I started making big changes in my life. Closed so many doors that no longer served me. Opened some amazing new ones. 2016 has been a year of ups and downs. It has been difficult and also amazing. 2016 has been the year of self discovery, growth, new beginnings and renewed faith.
All these changes could not have been possible for me without the guidance of my angel dad.
What I am trying to say is the person who died is always with you in another form, don’t let their death stop you in your life. Let that push you forward with their guidance. Don’t mourn their death, celebrate their lives. They were in our lives to bring us so much love and teach us so many lessons.
I am So happy to be in Lebanon with family and friends at this time. Appreciate the people in your life. Spend quality time with them.
Later on this morning I will be going to church to light a candle for my dad and one for all of your loved ones in heaven I will be praying for all of you to have peace. Then in the evening I will be spending it with close friends celebrating the New Year with renewed enthusiasm as it is a new beginning. 2017 is going to be a great one because I decided it is going to be for me. Make the decision to make it a great one for you.
Lots of love and Happy New Year to you all.”
My dad is with me everyday in different ways. I see cardinals (symbol of someone passing away who comes to visit), I feel him in my heart and one day when I was having a really bad anxiety day I received a facebook messenger with a photo of me at 4 with my dad. I felt so calm after that. Please take time to look around you and see the messages you receive from your loved ones. They are everywhere!
Enjoy the journey of life – It is so precious.